The Teenage Poems and what I’ve learned since: Volume 1

Some years ago I was poking around in my first book, Impassioned Cows by Moonlight, a collection of poems and short stories from my teens. And I had an idea: Wouldn’t it be fun to write a little commentary after each poem, to explain what I had learned since, about the subject of that poem? What I’d learned about identity crises, and overbearing older boyfriends, and sexual abuse, and the real meaning of self-love; about eating disorders, and emotional overloads, and so many other things. What I’d learned through living, and being with a meditation master – Osho – and therapy, and my own inner explorations and discoveries.

This is the first volume of that expanded book. It begins at age 15 in an alternative school in Riverside, California; proceeds to a summer and fall in Ferndale, northern California, and then back to Riverside and the university there. The 60’s were in full swing, my boyfriend was a musician, and I read my poems in coffeehouses where he played. It was a time both moody and sunny, in the midst of my large family, and with a difficult relationship. I was, much of the time, yearning for freedom… even as I was finding the voice that would bring me through the hard times to come, as I filled notebook after notebook with experiences and verse.

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Some reviews

“These gorgeous diaries are chock full of tie-dyed nostalgia, delightful pen and ink drawings, photos that reek of incense, and in-your-face honesty. A pilgrimage that began rough, hitching the uncertain roads of youth, has brought her home to herself… A feast where readers can satisfy their munchies while savouring here-and-now wisdom.”Deva Padma, author of TAO oracle and co author, The Osho Zen Tarot

“This eloquent, elegant, intimate and compassionate book is a must-read, a gift for every teenager and adult to be enriched and transformed by.”Nisarg B Nikiel, Human Design teacher

“I read the first page and fell (no, rose) in love. Wow. Every man with a plan to romance a woman needs this book as a tutorial. It’s not preachy, not for the timid, and… a total delight… Also a delight to travel back to 1967, the Summer of Love, and feel the joypain through the words and heart of the womanchild who pours out her whole being, naked and unafraid! I read until I could no longer focus. Love is the word that keeps coming up. Just love. The book is magnificent, intriguing, so wonderful to read the youthful poetry and then have context and commentary. It is a reader’s paradise. The poems are gorgeous and the format… is BRILLIANT!”David Hill, author, Mastering Madness

Some reviews of The Teenage Poems

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These gorgeous diaries are chock full of tie-dyed nostalgia, delightful pen and ink drawings, photos that reek of incense, and in-your-face honesty. A pilgrimage that began rough, hitching the uncertain roads of youth, has brought her home to herself... A feast where readers can satisfy their munchies while savouring here-and-now wisdom.

Deva Padma, author of TAO oracle and co author, The Osho Zen Tarot

This eloquent, elegant, intimate and compassionate book is a must-read, a gift for every teenager and adult to be enriched and transformed by.

Nisarg B Nikiel, Human Design teacher

I read the first page and fell (no, rose) in love. Wow. Every man with a plan to romance a woman needs this book as a tutorial. It's not preachy, not for the timid, and... a total delight... Also a delight to travel back to 1967, the Summer of Love, and feel the joypain through the words and heart of the womanchild who pours out her whole being, naked and unafraid!

I read until I could no longer focus. Love is the word that keeps coming up. Just love. The book is magnificent, intriguing, so wonderful to read the youthful poetry and then have context and commentary. It is a reader’s paradise. The poems are gorgeous and the format… is BRILLIANT!

David Hill, author, Mastering Madness

About Madhuri Z K Akin

Madhuri Z K Akin

Madhuri was born in California in 1952. She studied poetry and dance at UC Riverside, then in 1970 left hitchhiking on her travels, was invited into a film as a dancing extra, ending up in Europe for two years, where she wrote, published, and had unwise teenage misadventures. She returned to San Francisco, where she performed poetry and acted in dubious films. Her younger sister had meanwhile made it to India, where she met the mystic Osho, then called Bhagwan. She sent for her sister and mother to share in the revelation.

Madhuri then spent 30 years in Osho's communes, meditating, working, dancing, and eventually teaching psychic opening.

Her first book, Impassioned Cows by Moonlight, was published by Hanging Loose Press, New York, in 1974. She is the author of nine books, including the memoir Love at Dancing Leaves: a Tantra Memoir, and Mistakes on the Path.

She lives in Hebden Bridge, England.